s.t.r.e.s.s.e.d

I'm giving myself a ten minute break from life. But I only get ten minutes. Let me start by recapping in the form of what I call my "Stress List"

#1 Radiation Therapy Program
Just last week I submitted my application to the Radiation Therapy program I have been working so hard towards. Since my decision last summer to return to school and pursue an entirely new career, I have been taking classes and prereqs for this program. And now that I have officially submitted my application I couldn't be more stressed or nervous. Because unfortunately the program accepts it's qualified students through a lottery system. Which means that other than filing out the application and completing prereqs, there is absolutely NOTHING I can do to improve my chances of getting in. And that is what is so nerve-racking about this process. When it comes to luck, the big man upstairs tends to overlook me. I can only hope that it's finally my turn.

#2 School & Work. Finding a "Balance"

Or should I say, 'What balance?' I work, alot. And by alot I mean 5/6 days a week and I go to school. With science and medical based classes, the material for my classes is not the sort of stuff you can just BS. You have to really know it. Kind of like another language. And quite frankly, I just don't have the time right now that I want and NEED to really learn all of this stuff like I should. When (like my positive thinking?) I get into this program, there are going to have to be some serious changes.

My ten minutes are up. Back to the books. Guess my mini vent session will have to wait until later....